If I could only say this to your face.

9 months have gone,

I know this child well

in my arms, in my life

such uncertainty blossoms and I am scared

It won’t be long now until you are out of my life again

Our relationship is born again we just won’t admit it 

we just won’t get back into it

I taste your lips, a kiss mixed with tears and fears

I haven’t had faith like this

failure is still a very strong possibility

I won’t doubt it

nor shall I slow down the life I currently lead

one day you will read all this and know my mind

till then Ill hold my ground 

and await what we put on pause.